Something missing

Its beautiful out there they say, it pours and pours and pours...
I am here and I am loving being here...being away....
But something keeps me there....keeps me from distancing myself...
I have been waiting for long...for this one time to set it all right.
There's something missing I know, something that will keep me from being where I am
Its incomplete...its so not the same...its never felt this way...
Perhaps its just the space...perhaps nothing...
All I know is...I miss being there and I wonder why...I long for something and I can't figure what..

(And its not what you are thinking!)